Life is not an easy task…
I was so stressful at this time. Time flies so fast till I noticed that I already in the week 8 of the semester. I am not a good student but I still believe that I am not too far away from that. Below are the list of how I reflects about myself and the subjects that I learned during the semester..
If I could pause, stop and rewind the clock….
It is 2 o`clock in the morning….some of my friends would probably enjoyed their bed right now or maybe hanging up with phone calls or maybe “facebooking”.. Yet I am still here, sitting in front of my desk and thinking what I have done in the past 56 days ago…I felt restless, tired and messed up….I always asking myself why this life is so unpredictable(sometimes happy sometimes not)…I feel like giving up. But when the time I do something stupid things in order to vanish such emotions (for example, I will go hang out with my fellow friends during the asasi in order to forget the stress), I will hear the voice of my mum and every tears of her crying for me visualized in my mind. I can remember every single word that she used to advise me…..that is the reason that makes me feel guilty every time I do something that would not benefit me.
The only thing I know is I have to work harder and keep pushing me to the limit. I didn`t come from a wealthier family and I didn`t granted any specialties that made me so special. I am a simple person but I am not afraid to do something extraordinary. I reflects myself as a new player in a world full with challenges…which I had to encounter the problems myself as my mum always said “victory is not given, you must earned it”…I put it clearly in my mind.
I found myself in the first year degree at the law faculty of UKM. At this stage I noticed that I have changed a lot..some might in positive and some in a negative way. I have to take 7 subjects in this semester and the subjects are Malaysian legal system (MLS), constitution, contract, ICT, English for Law and another two co-curriculum subjects. I found myself that I could caught up with my core subjects namely the contract, constitution and MLS yet I still have to do a lot of reading in order to make my knowledge better.
About my study in English for Law classes, I found that this course is a very interesting one as I learnt a lot from this subject such as the skimming ones. Before this I take a long time to read the text by looking from paragraph to paragraph. But after I know this method, I found that I only have to find the important subjects or words that laid in the text. As a law student, it is a very effective way as law subjects consists of very long texts especially when reading the cases. I also could improve my skills in communication with my English lecturer and friends. I like it very much the way that my lecturer handling the class. She used a lot of quizzes during the class. Usually we are divided into two groups and each group will compete each other in order to win the quiz (usually competition using words or vocabulary). This method had introduced me a new vocabulary especially the legal words or terms that will be useful for me to apply it in the law field. However I am quite upset with the participation among my classmates as I saw them are not-so-energetic during the class. I hope that they could make the class happier as I enjoyed very much if I could study in a happy environment. I didn`t blame on them as I think that we need a little time for a change, or maybe they are too sleepy as the class started at 8am and they have to wake up early to catch up the bus. As I also always being late for the class. For sure, I love my class, my classmates and my lecturer.
Those things that I learned till now make me so energetic and I realized that I did not alone in this faculty. I throw away all the negative feelings that have been haunted me before. I started working this blog at 2am and finished it right now at 446am. At first I was so frustrated with myself but after a night`s spending on about myself revision, I noticed that all the burdens was just a test to make stronger and stronger. As a conclusion I may rewind or stop the time but it maybe not fair for me……thank you~
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